You know when you're a little kid and you just can't wait to grow up? You see all the adults and all that they get to do and all you can't do? I wish that we weren't so nieve to be able to see all the things that they get to do that aren't exactly fun. Which we all know very well as responsibilities. Re-spon-si-bil-i-ty, 1. The state,quality, of fact of being responsible. 2. Something for which someone is responsible; a duty,a obligation, or burden.
Lately I feel that I've obtained way too many responsibilities for my age. This week I've gone from college student to adult so fast that I had to stop my head from spinning. It was like someone took a ice cold bucket of water and threw it in my face saying, "There you go, you're now an adult." Although it seems that I'd been waiting for that day my whole life, It didn't feel the way I expected to feel. I was scared, nervous, reality was kicking in and I had to try to concentrate on my breathing so that I wouldn't break into tears. My whole life I could not wait to get out of Osakis, go to college and start my own life..but now that's happening I just wanna hop in a time machine and go back to my senior year in high school.
I feel as if I've been so responsible my whole life that I never had any opportunity to be that wild and crazy kid. In high school I had my sports and I wasn't going to risk going to any party...I don't handle the bench very well. Even in college, it's not that I didn't want to party, cause I did, but the fact that I have so many little girls looking up to me...it just made me not want to. I'm not saying that I never not partied because I have, but I felt extremely guilty afterwords.
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