Growing up means responsibilities..but when you're already an adult at 19 it's hard to realize what's TRUELY important. It's summer, meaning for most kids my age hard core partying, but for me I have no vacations or late nights unless I ask for them off. I can't go out and party every night till 3 in the morning and sleep in late. I have to wake up and go to my j.o.b. Thing is it's not just any job like log cabin.. it's my career. I can't mess this up. What I'm doing right now is what I will be doing for the rest of my life. Although I LOVE it sometimes I feel like I'm missing out. I don't get to go out and party with my friends or even go out that often really because late night = long day at work. So after turning people down multiple times they eventually stop inviting me. Which is understandable but completely sucks on my part. When I actually do have time off I have no idea what's going on and when I do people are already all riding with one another...and everyone knows it's no fun showing up somewhere by yourself. Resulting in me not going. I wish I wasn't so grown up. I miss my friends and hanging out with them. I wish they'd understand why I can't go out all the time..it's not that I don't want to because trust me I want to go it's that I can't if I want to be successful. So all of you teenagers out there that can't wait to grow up. Slow down. Enjoy your simpler years. You have your whole life to be an adult. Be a kid while you still can.
